Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Lindsay Flores
Lindsay Flores

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